Balaatkari Doctor - Part 1

Maine apane juute utar kar bahar lagi rack men rakhe, aur clinic me.n
daakhil hua. sab log mujhe ektak dekhane lage.

mujhe koi ashcharya nahin hua. main jaanta tha ki main bahut sundar
hoon. pichhale hafte main 18 saal ka ho chuka tha. meri height to
zyada nahin thi, qareeb 5'7" hi thi, par mera rang bahut hi gora tha.
gulabipan mila huaa gora. naak aur cheekbone kaafi uthi hui theen.
muuchhe abhi aai nahin theen bas kuchh royen jaise baal the. kandhe
aur seena chaude. swimming ne mere badan ko bhara-bhara aur mulayam
akr diya tha jaise paani ke dabaav se saari charbi poore badan mein ek
barabar phail gai ho. agar main khud hi apane badan par thode zor se
bhi ungali pher deta tha to laal nishan pad jaata tha. aakhir raees
ghar mein paida hone ka asar to dikhanaa hi thaa jab poora ghar hi
nahin, carein bhi air-conditioned thin aur jab paani ki jagah mineral
water hi piya jaata tha.

mere baal maheen aur sunahre the. seene aur bagal mein baal to abhi
nahin aaye the par neeche, aap jaanate hain kahaan, aa chuke the aur
wo bhi reshami sunahre the. aur agar koi kasar baaki rah gaii thi to
wah meri neeli aankhon ne puri kar di thi. jo mujhe dekhta, wo bas
dekhta hi rah jaata tha. deewanon ki tarah.

isliye mujhe in taareef bhari nazaron ki aadat si, ek lat si pad gai
thi, ya yah kahiye ki mujhe unaki koi kadar, koi waqat nahin rah gayi
thi. mujhe apane se zyada sundar aaj tak koi milaa nahin tha. isliye
main kisi se theek se dosti bhi nahin kar pata tha. dost the magar
mere man mein koi nahin tha. ladakiyan to kya, ladake bhi mere paas
aane ki qoshish karte rahate the, khub ishare dete the ke wo mere liye
kuchh bhi kar sakate hain par mujhe uname se koi pasand hi nahin aayaa
tha. kuchh log mujhe pooja karane ki nigaahon se dekhate the, jab ki
zyaadatar mujhe nazaron se nangaa karate rahate the. kai log mujh par
huqm chalaane, mujhe dabaane ki qoshish bhi karate the.

mujhe padhana achchha lagata tha, aur khelana koodna bhi, ghumana bhi,
swimming bhi, jogging bhi. shayad main in sabse apani zindagi ka
akelaapan bhulaane ki qoshish kar raha tha. is sab se mere chehare par
ek imandar bholapan aur mere vyavahar mein sabase ek duri rahti thi jo
logon ko meri taraf aur zyaada kheenchti thi.

isliye clinic mein ghusate hi jab maine qareeb 14 logo, bachchon,
ladko